Arbitrarily Arbit

arbit thoughts with a tinge of arbit truth to them

Dreaming Still

Posted by Mayank Agarwal on November 12, 2008

It was in a dream
that I first saw you.
I woke up in the morning,
and you were still asleep
inside of me.

It was in a dream
that I kept my thoughts
stuck in my back pocket,
wrapped up
to keep them from the cold
of a heedless world.

It was in a dream
that I walked alone
on a long and lonely road,
looking up at grey skies
to see your tears falling.

It was in a dream
that I first cried for you,
lost you to the indifference
of a life’s passage.

Sometimes it seems
I’m dreaming still.

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I’ll company you

Posted by Mayank Agarwal on July 6, 2008

Sound of chimes

assure you that there is someone with you

that wind says move along and I’ll company you

Gush of water

assure you that you don’t have to look back

that water says so what if obstacles come, move forward and I’ll company you

Light of fire

assure you that you still burn with flamboyance

that heat says you have the charisma, move forward and I’ll company you

Seeds sowed in earth

assure you that you have to support life

that earth says you have the potential, move forward and I’ll company you

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Nostalgia

Posted by Mayank Agarwal on June 4, 2008

Backtracking on my past
Reminiscing on what went by so fast
Remembering songs of old
Brings a shiver up my spine so cold
The foolishness of kids those days
Recalling those late moonlight rays
Erupts a warm feeling inside
Wanting to find an old friend to confide
To chat about how happy we once were
Pretty sure they would concur
Oh how the times go by
Remembering those old days with a *sigh*
How long will these nostalgic memories last?
For our brain capacity isn’t very vast
Till the day we breathe our last lung full of air
We won’t be able to look back at what once was there

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Did I forget how to write?

Posted by Mayank Agarwal on June 4, 2008

Oh boy did I forget how to write? I havent’ been able to pen down a good post for long (I don’t even recall the last good post though I can look at previous posts but still that involves opening up the dashboard and I am too lazy for all this :) )

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People I want to say Sorry

Posted by Mayank Agarwal on May 3, 2008

Not in any particular order,

  1. Megha
  2. Manasi
  3. Nikhil
  4. Subarna
  5. Karan
  6. Akash
  7. Avinash

I’m sorry for whatever wrong I did to you all, I know at some time I have hurt you all. Please forgive me, I don’t know if I deserve your pardon or not. But just that I want to tell you all about this.

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this lonely room

Posted by Mayank Agarwal on May 2, 2008

this lonely room

silence…
but for the hum of the ceiling fan

empty…
lumpy bed, scratched bureau
all that stands between
bare room and emptiness

a cockroach scampers up the wall
from nowhere
to somewhere, to hide
in dark crevices

how did i get to this place, this empty room
from somewhere to nowhere
from home
filled with family
…and things
to this lonely room
in someone else’s house

i come here…
to sleep
dreams, my only respite from loneliness
knowing that with the dawn
i’ll be back…
to this lonely room

thats how I will feel when I will be in US and I dread that day :(

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Essence of the night

Posted by Mayank Agarwal on May 2, 2008

A dedication of the day, crescent sight
The liberty of fairness, rainbow of the night
True accent of nature, longing of the sky
Purified atmosphere, forgotten silent sigh

Refreshing wind, a bleeding rose alone
Tints of silver-blue, grayness of the stone
Endless tune of guitar, serenity in the pain
Black rider of the night, awaiting the rain

Wounded hues of violet, joys of void woes
Traveling through the life, fearing no foes
Memories remain alive until the rise of light
Deep within me, in the essence of this night

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Countdown begins…

Posted by Mayank Agarwal on May 2, 2008

My countdown to US has been cut short and now I will be going to US only by mid June. Precisely talking I have 45 days to go…

I am feeling blue due to a mix of reasons. Its so stupid of me to think now how I wish I could turn back everything. How I wish this turns out to be only a dream or a nightmare and I wake up in my house with my mom and dad’s talking. How I wish everything turns out to be perfect like my dream and fantasy and I find the world to be perfect, a utopia. How I wish…

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Header Changed!!!

Posted by Mayank Agarwal on May 2, 2008

It’s time to change the header as I promised. I may not be able write many posts these days, but I will make sure to update the header. I am trying to figure out where my heart is and the header to me symbolizes the same. Hope you see what I see in it…

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Feeling Nostalgiac

Posted by Mayank Agarwal on April 27, 2008

I was listening to a song by KK called Pal. It is a song that makes you remember all the good times you have had, and I can listen to it any number of times without stopping. For those not familiar with the song, I will pen down the lyrics for you first in hindi, then translated in english though it may not be a good translation.

Hum, rahen ya na rahen kal (We may or maynot be there tomorrow)
Kal yaad aayenge ke ye pal (tomorrow we will remember these moments)
Pal, ye hain pyar ke pal (moments, these are moments of love)
Chal, aa mere sang chal (come, come along with me)
Chal, soche kya (come, what are you thinking)
Chhoti si, hai zindagi (life is small)
Kal, mil jaaye to hogi khush-naseebi (tomorrow if we meet, that will be good luck)

Hum rahen ya na rahen yaad aayenge ye pal (We may or maynot be there tomorrow, we will remember these moments)

Hum rahen ya na rahen kal (We may or maynot be there tomorrow)
Kal, yaad aayenge ye pal (tomorrow, we will remember these moments)
Pal, ye hain pyar ke pal (moments, these are moments of love)
Chal, aa mere sang chal (come, come along with me)
Chal, soche kya (come, what are you thinking)
Chhoti si, hai zindagi (life is small)
Kal, mil jaaye to hogi khush-naseebi
(tomorrow if we meet, that will be good luck)

Hum rahen ya na rahen yaad aayenge ye pal
(We may or maynot be there tomorrow, we will remember these moments)

Shaam ka aanchal, odh ke aayee dekho woh raat suhani (see the night has emerged wearing evening’s scarf)
Aa likh dein hum dono milke apni ye prem kahani (come, let us write together our love story)
Hum rahen ya na rahen yaad aayenge ye pal
(We may or maynot be there tomorrow, we will remember these moments)

Aane waali subah jaane rang kya laaye deewanee, (don’t know what colors will bring the coming morning)
Meri chaahat ko rakh lena jaise koi nishani (save my love as a souvenir)
Hum rahen ya na rahen yaad aayenge ye pal
(We may or maynot be there tomorrow, we will remember these moments)

Hum rahen ya na rahen kal (We may or maynot be there tomorrow)
Kal, yaad aayenge ye pal (We will remember these moments)
Pal, ye hain pyar ke pal (moments, these are moments of love)
Chal, aa mere sang chal (come, come along with me)
Chal, soche kya chhoti si hai zindagi (come, what are you thinking, life is small)
Kal mil jaaye to hogi khush-naseebi (if we meet tomorrow that will be good luck)

Hum rahen ya na rahen yaad aayenge ye pal (We may or maynot be there tomorrow, we will remember these moments)
Hum rahen ya na rahen yaad aayenge ye pal (We may or maynot be there tomorrow, we will remember these moments)

Whenever, I listen to this song, I feel what I would have missed if I wouldn’t have been here, I would have been a completely different person. Whenever, I listen to this song, I feel what I will miss after 3 months. I have a little time left and the clock is ticking fast, the time is running like anything. Damn, how I wish I had the power to freeze time, so that I can enjoy like and imbibe in the moment of love I have.

When I’ll not be around, I will miss all of you guys, Mummy, Papa, Vinu, Manasi, Megha, I’ll miss all of you like anything :’(

I can’t write anything mor

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